haiz, i dunno wad to say to myself.
i juz felt tat i am a lousy Bf, tats all i can say

with no ability to really tok to my darling probelms...
n help her

and to make thing worsts.
there is always a cold reply.
n dun seem to care about me...

wad can i do?
juz sit down here n cry like a dog
how worst it can get?
again n again i felt useless...
i am beginnig to fall
but hu can i turn to?
no one
only i can help myself
but sometimes, i juz hope someone is there for me

i hope tat i could really, mature n have a mature thinking.

mayb i am wrong in tis
i am not gonna to say it out wad thing is it
it will juz make everyone mad.
n think tat i am selfish.

juz feel like beating myself up
to wake me up

thks, ivan, for being there for me...
i owe u one more again...
Thks