HAIZZZ.....todae everything wen terribly ron for me
haizz....mayb tis is wad ppl call ''bad lousy fuck up day''

1st...my attitude got the better of me n i gave my Darling the lousy attitude
wen she ask mi wad happen...i really should control my temper n i really have to change my character to a better one n i really is trying my best to not scold vulgarities...

N! my attitude was tat bad bcoz of the OFA teacher, i ask him to teach me the pivot table n he ignored me 5 times! wth??i hate tis man.i wanted to learn something n while he didnt even bother about me! n wen other ppl called for helped. he juz wen there~ wth??
mayb i didnt do his work n he not happy with me? or bcoz i get D for my words n he thinks i am juz a stupid OFA student...

if teacher didnt wan to teach me den fine.
i will juz prove him ron...
n show him tat i can do better
N!!! I DUN LIKE TO BE LOOK DOWN UPON!!

Den my mood juz got worst n.... i lost to my lousy attitude
n i let it out on my Darling...
Shit! i hate my self for tat...
really srry Darling =(
i didnt really mean it...

2nd...while i wanted to sent my Darling home.
n i said mayb i wouldnt send u home...
there's a immediate change in her mood...

and wen i ask her whether she wan me to send her home
she juz said : ''no''
n wen i already decided to send her home.
she juz said :''no, nvm''
den wad i should do sia?
den i juz up the bus n pei her n alight at the nxt stop.even though my knee is pain
den i juz walk home n i called her quite a few tyms n she didnt even pick u my call.
u noe how worried i am?
n i juz msg her n she oso didnt rply me.
and atlast i got her rply n it really makes my heart beat slower as i noe tat she is fine...
n she juz told me tat she didnt have any mood and wanted to be alone...

at that point of time, i was thinking, oh shit,wad i juz did that make her angry?
n since she wanted to b alone, i juz wen to play bball to waste tym n make my knee move more smoother...but, it still seems to be in the same state.

Mayb it really was my fault for not sending her home? as she was having a backache n her mouth is quite pain, she also is a girl tat nids attention n care..
but sometyms i juz nid to relax so tat i could be the same tml n give her equal amount of care n attention, n not todae i treat her very gud, tml i treat her badly...i wanted to stay constant so that she wun feel that i am neglecting her, n mayb tis tym. i did neglect her feeling as i didnt send her home while she wanted me to send her home...

SRRY DARLING I JUZ WANTED TO HAVE A BREAK N TREAT U EQUALLY GUD EVERYDAY... N NOT TODAE TREAT U GUD, TML TREAT U BADLY AS I DIDNT HAVE THE JING SHENG...SRRY DARLING =(


SRRY DARLING FOR NOT THINKING ABOUT UR FEELING
N SRRY FOR VENTING MY LOUSY ATTITUDE AT U =(

SRRY!!! PLS FORGIVE ME =(

I WILL NOT REPEAT MY MISTAKES
n will try to change my attitude better.

GOMENASAI! =(