Joan,
The previous post tat i wrote. i wrote it wen i was not even thinking. I didn't consider about your feelings wen i wrote the previous post. Now tat i have calm myself down, n i think. You did it, just to not hurt me even deeper. I didn't consider about your feelings n just got straight into a conclusion tat u are toying with me n didn't love me at all. I terribly Sorry, Please Forgive me. I won't blame you if you never even forgive me. I can only blame myself.

When i think when we are together, i sort of like didn't trust you at all. U go out with guys, i ask so much. And maybe thats why u said tat when u are together with me, u sometimes feel that its very difficult to be with me. I myself said trust is very important in a relationship, But i am the one not doing it. Maybe if i have given u full trust, things might not have turn out this way.

The relationship or the wall that we build together in this 4 months, was a wall full of holes n with the holes in the wall. We just stood on it, and it fell. I am at fault at this. But, would u give me another chance to rebuild the wall again? with you. The decision is up to you. Just wanted to let you know. I will be holding on to the bricks n cement , waiting for you, and rebuild that wall that was full of holes.

Right now, whenever i woke up, i see my phone. I see the date, i think what should i do. The first thing that i had think of was, i lost something very important, n what i lost, was part of my life. I cant deny it. I lost a part of my life.

Joan, maybe u are going to be with your ex again. Maybe u are happily with him right now n i just like a idiot still waiting for your answer. But, i have no regrets waiting for you. No matter what decision u make, i will respect your decision. I cant bring myself to hate you, dun bother about you. I still care, i still love you, and that's why, if there's anything. I will just be by your side if u need me.

Ya, i am jealous. But, if i am not jealous, then its really very strange. I think i have see things more clearly now. I hate the me when i am not even thinking and just putting the blame on you. I didn't consider about how u feel. I failed you as a boyfriend. Maybe, you would think that i am all talk to you, but i will show you before we get together. If u would even give me the chance. But, i wish, i wish that we could be together again. And if we are really together again. I will be more mature, I will trust you even more, and put myself in your shoes. In the 4 months, i have not done these things. But, after getting a good scolding from Bounaventure. He woke me up.

Thanks for everyone concern about me. Especially, Ivan, Yong liang, Hanjun and Sze zhaung. U guys are there for me when i fell. Giving me advice, lending me your shoulders. To have these friends of mine. I have no regrets having them even if i die. I will still remember you all. The help u all gave me. And i would also be there for you all if you all need me. But its also time for me, to stand up. And do things like a man. And amend my mistakes. I want to give it a try one more time. Hope you guys understand how i feel. And i am sorry.

I hope that you will have your answer as soon as possible. And, this few days, i will not disturb you. I want you to think clearly. It considers about your happiness and your way of life.
I thank you for the 4 months you were with me. I just didn't do, what a good boyfriend would do.
And now that i know what when wrong, i hope that you would give me a chance to show you that i have already Grown up.

PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR WHAT I HAD WROTE IN THAT POST.
SORRY!

GOMENNASAI!!! .forgive me.



Pls let me know once you have your answer.
no matter what. I will be there.

From: Lee Zhuang Jie
To: The girl that i let her down