Right now, i dunno if i should be angry? or sad?
ytd we are still fine wishing each other Happy anniversary.
then wen i was about to sleep, u called me n told me tat ur ex called u
n said those wanting to wait for u thingy...

u said u were confused.or rather u dunno wad u wanted.
i juz cant believe it.
we spend 4 months together, n juz one fone call from him.
u jiu say u dunno wad u wanted.

This isnt the 1st tym,
the 1st tym. i had already lost trust from u.
den at the beach, i told u everything wad my heart wanted to tell u.
i started believing in you back. i begin to trust you again.
n now this, how am i suppose to believe in wad u said to me now?
trust is very important in a relationship.
w/o tat, no people can feel safe n secure in a relationship.
n tats wad happening now.

To be true, are u using me as a tool?
a tool to play wif n juz throw away?
u said u loved me.
the messages tat u sent me.
u said love me very much n wanted to last n show me care n concern.
but now wad?
are u all talk?
juz say nia, nv do it.
but i know, u loved me, cared for me , and concerned for me.
den y suddenly like dat?
isit tat u think too much?

Wen ur ex called u,
n if u are really firm tat u really love me.
den y cant u juz tell him tat it is impossible between u 2.
n say tat u re attached now.
or something like dat n not juz listen n den suddenly like dat.
y? y? y? i juz dun understand.

den u noe how tired am i to find u?
to solve this probelm n have a heart to heart tok.
u said my mum is a probelm.
i slept at 6, woke up at 730.
juz to tok wif my mum about how she treat you.
n she said she will treat us better...
den i jiu wen to ur hse,
i waited from 9 to like 1 plus?
n wad u said to me?
" y not u go home? , we have nt to tok"
u noe how heart broken i am? wen u said this words.
its like u dun even give a fucking care to our relationship.
n u noe how my back hurts?
it was raining so hard last night
did u even think how hard i have to tahan?
Back fucking pain, not enough slp, wanting to settle the probelm
n save this relationship.
n wad u said to me???
wad ever i ask u, u say dunno.
n the word tat actually breaks my heart,
was "i might be going back"
it shattered my heart

all tat i had done for you,
i cant believe tat, juz one call...
juz ONE FUCKING CALL!
it beat the relationship tat we had been buliding tgt for 4 months.
isit tat wadever u said to me was juz purely words to juz entertain me?
or juz say for fun?

i dunno lahx, ur heart wan change jiu change.
how am i suppose to feel secure n trust u if we are tgt?
i have went for an extra-mile in our relationship.
have u?

did u ever really loved me?
if have, y suddenly like dat?

the memories we share had.
the tings i did for u?
the candles, the care n concern tat i shower u?
the love tat u felt from me
as this all juz fake to you?

no matter wad,
the things tat u said, the things tat u showed or done to me.
i still would love u. i will still be by ur side if u nid me ever again.
everyone told me to forget about u, n get angry.
but i juz cant bring myself to hate u, n get angry at u.
wad am i suppose to do?

u say u wan choose,
den how long u wan me to wait for an answer?
pls give me an answer as soon as possible.
or a decision at wad route u wanted to walk.

wen i tot clearly, i can easily list 5 things tat i did to make u happy
but if i try to remember the 5 things tat u did for me tat make me happy.
i have to think really hard...
but i appreciate wad u did for me...
it was the 1st tym i felt really happy.






The day tat we are tgt, is the day we wen separate way




people who tot cinderella is a happy ending.
are people who cant really think
n juz look things through only its cover.